So there I was, minding my own business, hammering away at this story of mine, when I suddenly ran into something.
Something more deadly than writer’s block.
I ran into a new alpha character.
There are times when I’ll wake up with another character in my mind… a character so solid and intriguing that they simply can’t be a beta character (which means that they can’t simply be woven into what I’ve already written)… a character that literally makes my heart feel like it’s a few sizes too big for it’s container. I’m not sure that I’ve ever been officially “in love”, but I’ve danced vigorously on the edge of it, and meeting a new character always feels like that… all tingly and sexy and irrational.
I feel like I’m cheating on my book… you know, the work of fiction that disappeared so traumatically from my computer months ago that I have painstakingly rebuilt, brick by brick.
I’m trying to proceed with my original thought and I can’t. This character, and the backstory that the character came wrapped in, won’t leave me alone.
This character even has a clear face and physical form.
This character is just sitting on my frontal lobes, unsmiling and unblinking, drinking a Coca-Cola.
Yes, this character even has a drink preference.
No matter how hard I try to focus, this character speaks, in a very clear, crisp voice, and interrupts me (like a jerk) while I’m writing.
I do not mean that figuratively.
When I’m writing, I hear voices.
I have considered the possibility that I may not actually be a writer… I may be schizophrenic.
What should I do?!
Do I give in and at least draft out yet another story, establish the surroundings and the secondary characters, in the hopes that this new person will leave me alone long enough to let me finish what I’ve started, or is it no use?
Should I resist the urge to dive into the new and exciting and slog it out with my present effort until I at least have a full first draft completed?
Does this say something about my level of commitment and discipline, if I’m so quickly wooed by something that is entirely in my own mind?!